so damn dumb

haha so yesterday i was testing out my new car on the highway, and it is a stick shift right. so i was going about 45 maybe 50 and i was gonna switch it into 5th gear, and me being fuckin dumb switched it into first which made the car screech to a halt fuckin right there like i hit a brick wall....i thought i fuckin died lol. so anyways it is a good day nice and sunny with a few clouds out, i wish there was more clouds tho, we need more cloudy days they are amazing. anyways i am gonna go cuz i need to work on my bathroom downstairs...remodeling can be a bitch of a time-stealer......lol. then i dont know what i am doing ...hit me up on myspace peoples myspace.com/belwicketcoven

peacefull and all full of love (only a dream, while i live this nightmare)

the longer i wait to see him, the longer i wait to hear from him, the more that my insides burn and tear up. he is part of my heart and that part keeps destroying it self. i want to be with him so bad now, as my life and my family crumbles to bits. he is not here with me like he said he would. my mind is going crazy i cannot stop the scary thoughts of a divorce in the family a scary thought, for i had the heartfelt feeling that they would be together forever. i cry a lot nowadays almost 2wice a day, because he isn't here, and they are splitting up :(......why cant my family be the normal one.....not a fucked up mess that cant get it together......why cant he just be the one, and save me the trouble of going through this pain day after day, maybe this life is just not worth it, maybe i wont make it to 20, maybe my time on this earth will be limited, it seems so real now ....the thought of not waking up in the morning...i cannot take it anymore...it hurts so much. i hope this shall pass, and life will go the way i dream every night, peaceful and all full of love..........good night...and blessed be

-Rowan

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add some comments please...lol tell me how im doin on my bloggin shit hhhahahaha

Ready for Fe'ileaca'n

so on Saturday we are having our first official fe'ileaca'n which is our study group our first lesson is called Wicca 101 and me and my high priestess Erin will be teaching it. i am so happy for saturday, four other people are planned to be showing up for our classes so that is also exiting, makes me think of what i can teach them to make their minds explode with creation. right now i am trying to type up and lok up information for the lesson on saturday, god i need some coffee...i wonder how erin is doing on her side of the lesson....idk i will have to ask her. lol. my printer is not working so good so i have to add more ink soon god i hate doing that i gotta get nasty clothes on to wear....shiiiitttttttt! anyways i need a cigarette lol......whose got one hhahahah jkjk...ok well i am gonna go hope everyone is likeing the blog i got goin here....talk to it soon hahhahahah "it"....lol......
Blessed Be!

-Rowan

its reyn B-Day

happy birthday reyna.....i dont have your present yet cuz of the whole i haave no money thing but you can expect it soon....i hope you like it....no i know for a fact you will love it...i cannot wait to get it lol....hope you read this blog today....i love you soo much...i could not have asked for a better best freind.....love you soo much.....blessed be!

-rowan

Boy I feel dumb

A week ago I told someone that my birthday is on the 7th of September and they said 'oh so your birthday is on Monday' and I was like 'yeah I guess'. So and I've been telling everyone that on Monday I'll be seventeen and I've been looking forward to today but I'm looking at the calendar and it says the 6th. I think I just wanna staple my mouth shut.
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But anyways I'm listening to a song called Blessing by London After Midnight (i've been listening to it for hours on end) and it made me think-
People say they won't believe in anything they can't see, and if you are one of these people, what if it wasn't meant to be seen but only felt. Like have you ever felt something even though you couldn't see it? Even if it was only a feeling. I pretty sure we all have. It's like a gut feeling basically, so do people say that they don't believe in their gut feelings?

--Reyna--

Hii from Star

Hey everyone, it's star. we're at reyn's house trying to edit a video and put it on utube. it's not going so well... Weirdly i have a feeling of horrible inpending doom right now, i've had it for a couple hours now but i'm trying to figure out what it is instead of freaking out. i feel as if my life with Belwickett is ending but i don't see a reason for the ending yet. Well anyways see ya later
-Star

Blessed Be